one week has past, and im still not yet out of the daze.. not talking to anyone unnecessary or not.. Thanks to ppl out there who actually listens to me talk, coz i sumtyms dun even know wad im talking abt.. im more of a listener, than a talker.. sometyms i juz get jealous of ppl who can talk non-stop:(
i guess i can sense ppl's emotions better than others, but its juz that sometimes i can do nothing to change things for the better.. i'm not gd wif words.. u can't expect me to pop up a Qn to u tt says,"Are you bored accompanying me?"
I mean, it's juz tt i can't find any topics to talk to anybody.. sometimes, in a convo, i can sense tt im suppose to start talking, but apparently, while some ppl think tt im juz stoning or walking alone, actually im straining my head to think of something to talk abt, and when all EYES are on me, i'll juz give a 1-sentence answer(or less), and then the situation gets real awkward.. u think i like tt huh??
maybe im juz an uninteresting guy, with a good pairs of ears, but with a mouth tt rarely opens.. i don't want to be alone, but it pains me to see ppl around me who wants to be talked but in the end, have to do all the talking instead..
i guess its real hard being my friend, and so, for all the ppl out there, a BIG thank you..


And yes, sometimes, its really tempting to be alone.. It's definitely less tiring for me to stop rake my brains over my problems with people.. But somehow, i have to try, coz they hav become pieces in me. W/out them, i don't feel whole.. In the past, i might have been an asshole and tell everyone your secrets or made you angry, but i hope u can still see a friend in me, for i may not have the solutions to all your problems, but at least i have completed half by juz listening to you.