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2006-04-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-06T20:50:00.000+08:00

my last entry.. will i want to start a new one. ask will i.

i lied when i said this's the longest. because long entries=lots of explanations, and blogs aren't the best place to explain to the person whom it matters most.
okay, this is it. bye.

stroge | eros | philia | ~~agape~~
in which category are u in?
leave agape out first, coz apparently, i haven sacrificed yet. but it'll be an outright lie if i say there isn't anyone worthy, unbelievably. life, is cheap.

2006-04-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

NO: 99

in a room of converzation

you are the only one i hear

in a track plenty of runners

your shadow is the first i see

how crafty my mind has become

playing jedi mind tricks on me

pointless to ignore; to avoid

when my senses are tuned to you

i lead my life by my impulse

easy on flames, quick to regret

i crave madly for forgiveness

will a simple sorry suffice

live and let live, to hell with it

2006-04-03T00:06:00.000+08:00

NO: 98

ptm went well without major glitches. though i ALMOST got to meet HER. hrmm, dunno what she'll say to my mum even if she sees her.. Bet she doesn't even know my full name.. but who cares anyway?? haha.. not as though im not enjoying myself without her breathing down my neck.. hehez..

ok, i think everyone should read Sunday's NewPaper(2/4) Howard's End(pg30), coz tt'll help solve everyone's problems. after reading it, guys will finally have a breather, tt they are not alone in thinking why can't they have a proper answer to the question, "why do u like me?" posted to them by their female counterparts. i shan't give any spoilers, but lets juz say the article is very true, from hmm.. experience(note:singular!!!).. and i ain't making a joke out of anything..

im tired of waiting.. so close to the edge(of heaven or hell?), yet i must make the final step. its not a matter of wanting or not, more of the timing when to say. wrong timing *pulthunk* i drop straight to hell. or maybe im juz simply bochi.

oh, grandma HAPPY BIRHTDAY!! haha.. thanks for 17 years of durian puffs and chicken wings and loads of laughter.. you were and still are the most sensitive person i've met, coz u always knew wads on my mind!! haha..

i suddenly came up with this quote while taking with eugene, and i think its pretty true,

we shouldn't split people we know as either friends or enemies, coz then, u'll be spending half ur lifetime fighting a war.

2006-03-29T22:47:00.000+08:00

NO: 97

Okay i decided to earn loads and loads of money when i grow up. i want my car, and a part of The World

those are real islands, mind u.. im not TT greedy.. juz a continent will do fine.. hahas.. and check out the Palm too.. hahas.. i won't mind my house on it.. too bad it's in dubai.. tts like in the Middle east.. not the happiest place to be now.. lol..

2006-03-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

NO: 96
izzit gonna continue forever? i am feeling pretty sick already, and i'll feel more sick later in this entry.. argh, it sucks.. but, wad to do? the pain is self-inflicted. blame myself for it. im juz blabbering..

and i m NOT a shark for god sake, gimme a break..!! i wan ppl to excel more than what they can achieve, but sometimes, when my help is needed, i juz CAN'T assist, coz i DUNNO myself, and NOT coz i am a STUPID shark. now i know wads being misunderstood, but hey, i got NO authority to discuss tt. my problems are way too minute. sure, i mug.. i MUG books in Borders on saturdays in the evenings!! tt counts as mugging too?? hurhur.. sickk. hate me for tt?? ohwell.

and someone pls inform Toblerone NOT to include honey in its white chocolate bar?? the taste is clashing and it smells like medicine.. bad choice for the first time i pampered myself, alone.. haha..

2006-03-25T01:39:00.000+08:00

NO: 95

80 episodes = 16 weeks = 4 months.. okay, for the next 4 months, i'll get so hooked by da chang jin.. damn.. but its not my fault.. its in the genes rit?? some chemicals tt is causing me to become a tv addict.. haha.. feel so much better now, all thanks to ms chok..

drafting my NO.100.. its gonna be long.. haha.. happy waiting?? a nice conclusion to end my happy days.. ok, im not sad, coz ppl still care..

I CAN'T FIND THE WORDS TO SAY GOODBYE - BREAD
can't say i don't love her
still i can't pretend
that my heart is torn just knowing that i'm losing my bestfriend
if it's easier said and done
then someone tell me why
though i try,
i can't find the words to say goodbye

i could tell her that i'm sorry
hope she'll understand
she will have to do with someone else
all that we have planned
i'd rather her hear the truth
than hurt her with a lie
so i tried,
but i can't find the words to say goodbye

now i know
i have to go
there's no other way
but goodbye is not what i can bring myself to say...

if i told her "see you later"
then i might be wrong
'cause this voice inside is driving me
to find where i belong
i know i must leave her now but everytime i try,
don't know why,
but i can't find the words to say goodbye...
don't know why,
i can't find the words to say goodbye....

2006-03-23T21:50:00.000+08:00

NO. 94

okay, im a shark? i'll sacrifice friendship and use unscrupulous means to achieve my goals. no wonder. ROAR!
okay, sharks don't roar, but do keep away from me, its for all ur own sake.. i'll close up and hide, hopefully, turning into a turtle. i shun away from reality, at least i can lead a peaceful life. haha. i thrive in solitude for 17 years, no point not continuing. lol.

omg, my brother, at primary 6, already has, believe it or not, ABS..!! ARGH!! crazy fellow.. i think he laugh all the time till he builds his muscles.. but he's really weak though, haha.. failed his napfa test? lol..

why? why am i still stuck in tt state!! move on, CHAO CHING!!

2006-03-20T22:17:00.000+08:00

life's back on track, well almost..

missed out on SYTYCD for half an hr!! shucks.. but it's nice though.. haha.. it's more of admiration actually.. but lets not dwell into tt..

i wan to quit sch.. i wan to be a volunteer in a childcare centre!! i think if other ppl see what i do to my brother, they'll think im barbaric or smth.. actually not tt bad la.. haha.. figure of speech figure of speech... tsk.. Yes, i wan to learn the virtues of patience and tolerance.. watched 'super nanny' on central.. i think it'll do me good.. hear children whine, cry, poo, then clean up their mess everyday. if i can take tt, i can take on anything..

oh.. closing this blog when i hit 100 entries.. nows on 93.. haha.. plenty of bullshit.. dunno why u guys are reading this anyway.. contemplating on a new one, but what for?? hmmz.. maybe it'll juz have a theme or smth.. physics? cars? jokes? hur.. think abt it.

2006-03-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

to 3 eyes:
tiring week. seems to me tt everything can't return to normal. not me i mean. i dunno wad u want from me. not tt im particularly displeased or anything. but having a fren who talks beats losing one. after reading this, maybe u'll juz ignore it, coz this entry states clearly tt now, u r in the wrong, but being u, u won't want to admit it. dun give me tt attitude of urs. i had it MORE than anyone alr. try something new can? it's juz plain hard to explain myself and squirm my way through. maybe im in the wrong too. dun take it tt im insensitive, coz i neva will be. juz changing for the better. telling ppl stuff is good, coz then i'll inflict less hurt on myself in the future, and possibly on others.
perpetual state of ignorement is bad for health.
oh well, all these makes my upcoming week more unpredictable and trecherous. but at least there's So u think U can DANCE to look 4ward to..

2006-03-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

tts the route i ran today.. looks long, but it was really really great.. haha.. all the way from yewtee, cck, and all the lrt stations leading to segar(tts my home, btw).. conquered them all.. hahas.. 6.6km in 45 mins.. haha!! really shiok.. nv run so far before.. everyone should try..

people say running is painful.. i see it as a pain relief

2006-03-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

the car speaks for itself..

Another day in the bookstore, another day lazing in the corner finishing one book.. this time, its 'Does anything eat wasp?'.. haha.. my kind of book.. totally enjoyed reading those kind of books.. anw, found something really ridiculous about light bulbs being dark suckers.. haha.. pretty lame..

2006-03-15T01:04:00.000+08:00

okay, i owe all of u an apology. i am sorry if i have been hiding some things, but the fact is that sometimes, i juz want to be left alone. i want to work out my personal stuff in a stress-free environment. of course, a word of thanks to 3 people, who had been there to encourage me whenever i thought of giving up. i have been giving u 3 ppl quite some problems, but u all juz took them in ur stride and helped me the best u could. a big thank you.

i choose to tell u all now, because there is no point of hiding anymore. sorry i took so long to tell u all. everyone's been telling me repeatedly why am i so gloomy these past few weeks. it's been hard on u all, coz i noe when i feel down, somehow ppl around me will get infected too.. i but i've really tried to conceal what i usually think. the fact tt i can't even control myself tells u how deeply in trouble i m getting myself in, a path tt i can never turn back..

X, a reply to ur letter dated 12th march:

i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do
about you now

ok, i accept the fact that you and i can never be together. i sort of knew it was coming, but typical of me, i didn't wan to accept the obvious clues lying in front of me.
courtesy of A, i got the glimmer of hope that u think we can be together. at that point, to tell the truth, i was even more confused than ever. i used to do things at my own pace, but at that moment, it seems to me that i must do something drastic, something big enough to wow ur heart away. so i start to rush into things, sometimes trying so hard, i wonder why i did it in the first place.
love is mutual. love cannot be pushed or pulled(physics students will understand). it took me a while to fully comprehend the importance of it. i always believed the most sincere of actions can melt even the coldest heart. maybe it's still does, just that im not sincere enough.
i could sense it when slowly, there was less and less connection between u and me. i thot tt maybe communications can be better if we hanged out more, but it proves otherwise. while we were in ECT, and when there were friction between u and B, i had the best conversations of my life, and i thot i knew u as if i was part of the family. well, it turned out to be just an illusion.
people makes choices all the time. i do, and u too. the things that i did were never considered sacrifices for me. thinking back, i never regretted the things that i have done for u, and i never will. instead, i will remember the good times we had together. well, u had just made a choice, and i cannot deny it makes me sad, but life still goes on for both of us.
i realised that i thought tt i cared alot for ur feelings, but actually they are what i think u would think. ppl say they can't comprehend what is in your mind, but i always thot i had the answer. maybe there is still a long way before i can fully comprehend what other people are actually thinking. if u can find that special someone in the future, who can understand u, and whom u can spill everything out, its fate, because these people are rare to come by. sometimes, its good enough to settle for someone who is not ur perfect match, and by that, i am not meaning myself. i am referring to other people who will appear in ur life in the future. give these people a higher chance. by doing that, you are giving yourself a chance too.
okay, this is it. i m closing this chapter of my life to an end. a brand new page begins. although, i will remember the experience again, i will remind myself that life is like a book. i can't throw it away just because of a bad chapter. life goes on, and so does the page count. they say the climax is always at the end, and im eagerly awaiting it to come. 3 bad chapters, means that i'll treasure the climax even more, make sense?

end

cc

love
it all started as pure friendship,
nothing more, maybe less.
but soom the boy developed a crush,
and crush soon turns to infatuation, then transform into love.
now, the other party is enjoying life,
when she suddenly recieved the shock of her life.
she did not know how to react,
because it was going to be her first time.
while the boy tries all means to win her heart,
she was plain confused, and a little scared.
the girl said, these kind of things cannot be forced.
but he juz gave a shrug, as if nothing ever mattered.
but deep down in his heart, he knew it was true,
these kind of things cannot be forced.
how the boy yearned, how the boy wished,
that somehow, the little things he did will touch her heart.
the boy's life has since became a mess, and he doubt she is happy too.
this was not what the boy wished for,
that both parties will be troubled
but life must go on, and so he waited.
for he is someone different, someone who believes in fairytales.
reality strikes, but he took it in his stride,
somehow or rather.
now, he must face the toughest test yet,
to revert back to his usual self.
how he does it, he'll rather do it alone,
because only he knows it best.
hint.hint.

2006-03-13T22:35:00.000+08:00

Aoccdrnig to rscheearch at cmabrigde uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a tatol mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm

Problematic facts of life:

You think of 10 important things to remember just as you are falling asleep. now that u have remembered, you know very well that if u leave them, u'll forget them.. So u force urself awake, crawl out of ur bed, hunt for a pen and paper and scratch them down, only to find out u remembered everything perfectly the next day.

Sometimes, you wake up two mins before the alarm goes off, you'll say, "well done, i have two mins to spare for a quick snooze, u switch off the alarm, and the next thing u know, ur mum screams at u for being 2hrs late"

Between 1 room and the next, the memory is wiped..
U are working on some arty-crafty project in the living room, when suddenly u nid 1 little thing from another room. u go into the room, stops suddenly and stand there thinking, 'why am i here?'

once u hear a new word, u keep on hearing it

the only tunes tt u can't get out of ur head are the ones u shouldn't have let in(same with people)

when at last you have to ask the shopping assistant where is the object u want, u suddenly find them in ur sight

u juz threw away a heavy, ugly and useless thing, and suddenly u nid it urgently the next day

absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, just as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire

'first impression count! Buy it' usually overrides 'you can't tell the book by its cover'

On the evening of the big date,...
- a pimple appears in the middle of ur nose
- however hard u comb, one hair always sticks up

you thing of the right thing to say just after u and ur partner parts(how true)

objects behave better when u shout at(or physically abuse) them(think lifts and, er people??)

any situation demanding ur undivided attention occurs simultaneously with a compelling distraction(think CTs and uh, nvm..)

nothing works when people watch

ur queue is always the slowest(and when u switch queue, the previous queue becomes the fastest)

any tool(or coins, especially of the larger denominations) when dropped, will roll into the least accessible places(under the vending machine, at the feet of the opposite gender)

cornflakes bags don't fit back into the box once u have taken the whole thing out.

-ew ar braykin ma hart, sdop eid

2006-03-12T10:54:00.000+08:00

Turn around, Look at me - The Vogues

There is someone walking behind you,
Turn around, look at me.
There is someone watching your footsteps,
Turn around, look at me

There is someone who really needs you,
Here's my heart in my hand.
Turn around, (turn around), look at me, (look at me,)
Understand,understand,

That there's someone who'll stand beside you.
Turn around, look at me.
And there's someone who'll love and guide you.
Turn around, look at me.

I've waited, but I'll wait forever for you to come to me.
Look at someone (look at someone)
Who really loves you, yeah, really loves you.
Turn around, look at me.
-from the movie Final Destination 3

I want to be a pianist, to let my hands fly on the keys even when i am starving, at least the love for music never dies.
Heard this quote in the pianist, thought it was pretty familiar, then i rmb, it was in the merchant of venice
If you prick us do we not bleed?
If you tickle us do we not laugh?
If you poison us do we not die?
And if you wrong us shall we not revenge?

2006-03-11T12:57:00.000+08:00

my life comes to a standstill, its so quiet now.. really peaceful..

2006-03-06T21:27:00.000+08:00

tmr is the big day. i am so scared. result will be out, i guess.. im so not fully prepared to face it. how am i to face up to myself if i got a F9?

2006-03-03T19:28:00.000+08:00

Paid $8.00 to watch happy tree friends on the big screen.. hahah.. but at least it wasn't a total disappointment.. i was running out of ideas of how i should die if i have the choice.. definitely not tanning though, or getting pumped nails into ur head..

dunno why my mask-for-all-occasion didn't work today.. whole day ppl ask me 'are you alrit?' bleah.. are ppl suppose to feel alright all the time?? well, i dunno.. if i had, i won't be needing a mask everyday in the first place.. okay.. crapping..

im too irritating.. i need to give space. i forgot tt all matter occupies space.

I have an oil lamp here.. and i want to guide u home.. can i? even though im just a oil seller

and its a 'no' here too.. and i must be a real joker to let ppl think im not serious at EVERYTHING.. rarr..

2006-02-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

eugene just told me a fairytale. he was done with it, but i know he wasn't finished, coz i know its never never never never gonna end.. best of luck, best bud. Also, cheryl, be thankful of eugene now tt u two are one, coz i know he'll definitely treat u better than how he treats his own half..

i clean up the tragedy of mine, but it'll be mended.. i am not sure of how u wanted ur fairytale to start, but i definitely started off the wrong foot. im a amatuer writer, devoid of confidence. But i will introduce a twist someday soon.. i don't need someone else to set the standard, i'll start my own standard. but, rest assure. i'll clinch the Pulitzer for u, i promise, and this time, it ain't gonna be broken. trust me.

can we not have the line between u and me? like in this pic?? hahahahas..

i have to do less wrongs, so that i'll say less sorries in the future, and they'll have more worth..

2006-02-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

aerospace=flying display, aching legs, and most importantly freebies..

i want to take a one week holiday.. everyone's worried about CT, but i guess its juz a small test.. It must be the aftermath of the promos anxiety. Anyway, i have a greater priority now.. dun go lecturing me about the importance of studies.. haha.. I said i had no aspirations, but now i have. I was serious when i said u are better than those five in the foodcourt, ain't rubbish!!

haiz.. how to go sch like dat??

2006-02-25T15:03:00.000+08:00

all alone now.. nobody to go home with.. :( whahahaha.. juz joking.. i can always make a pit-stop at admiralty.. ;) tsk

2006-02-24T19:53:00.000+08:00

im being feed bits by bits now.. but these bits are not the stuff i want!! sry to make u'all tell me.. haha.. but i appreciated it.. maybe i give the impression tt its bothering me, but its not the most impt thing in my mind.. actually i knew of it all along.. eugene noe tt i suspected of it too.. hahas.. juz tt maybe i got no one to confide to, so it and all other problems sort of lump into one big problem.. ya.. haha.. thanks

2006-02-24T15:28:00.000+08:00

why am i left out of every single thing tts happening?? can i please have a time turner?? i do not want to go back in time to rectify my mistakes.. im tired. can i turn forward to the last second before i die, so that i dun have say goodbye to anyone, and i won't be so loser in hell coz nobody said goodbye to me.

2006-02-21T21:15:00.000+08:00

haha.. had a nightmare yesterday, abt swivel chairs.. freaking scared when i was asleep, laughing out loud when i woke..

The machine moves at MACH 2.
The man has to move quicker

who's interested to go for the Aerospace openhouse?? hmm..

2006-02-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

wasted a whole perfect day pleading the nokia personnel to GET ME A NEW PHONE SET TTS IN WORKING ORDER.. damn them.. then got for myself a HP printer-scanner-copier.. been fiddling it all afternoon, until tv time with frank the con artiste.. meanwhile, had a quarrel with my bro. haiz.. daoing me the whole night since.. :(

sometimes, i don't know whether i am Man or dog

2006-02-19T02:17:00.000+08:00

Haha.. finally a decent post.. hmm.. feeling weird all these days.. maybe its all the pre-CA stress.. oh mann.. everybody's done their work, and i'm still struggling?? haiz.. Oh, and we've stopped physics tuition with Mr. $$$face alr.. gonna continue looking for a new tutor.. anyone to recommend?? haiz..
was discussing with kelv if we lamers shld start our career's in advertising, since ppl can come out with tt Mac's 'OOooooooooorrrrrrchard Rd" advert(btw, FYI, tt taxi driver is brandon's dad).. tsk.. today's quite productive.. studied frm 3.00+ till almost 7 wif brandon and kelv.. was preety optimistic tt the Man Utd vs Liverpool scoreline will be in favor of MU.. end up wasted my primetime tvslot frm 8.30-10.30.. Final Scoreline? MU 0:1 LVP
Ha.. gonna buy my printer tmr, unless anyone wants to use their mastercard for me.. tsk *hinthint

2006-02-17T22:55:00.000+08:00

An epitome of a frenship i believe will stand the sands of time

Printer, printer, HP printer
Think i'll get it somewhat later

the real scary part when u see a sad person is not when you see him crying, it's when u see him laugh; not when you see him agitated, it's when u see him numb in thoughts

2006-02-16T19:40:00.000+08:00

After a few days of intense thinking, i realised tt the way i make friends is really unreasonable and stupid.. I've missed out on alot of friends and conversations simply because they have not passed through some 'mental filter' i have inside my head.. sounds really retarded rit?? but its the truth.. how many class mates have i talked on a regular basis?? ha.. So dun even nid to talk abt ppl outside my class.. im changing the way i interact.. its a start..

2006-02-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

Billy bombers bombs nothing but ur wallet.. nothing much.. wonder why's its so 'high-class'.. argh.. waste money waste money!! If only i get to eat ribs tmr, tt'll be a different thing all together.. Haiz.. but all gone down the drain.. I've kamikazed myself..

I have done a great deal of wrongs,
but this is the worst i can ever get.
why am i doing it again and again,
and not realising where my fault lies.
And its always me tt got it all wrong,
not him, and not him either..
Maybe im just an insensitive bastard. case close

2006-02-09T18:38:00.000+08:00

I gave u all the space to breath
the freedom to do what u want
stood quietly by your side
But is this really what you want
Or am i just imagining things

BECAUSE OF YOU
K Clarkson
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

2006-02-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

leaving everything as it is, status quo

2006-02-05T21:04:00.000+08:00

WHAT IS THE WORLD'S GREATEST NATION?

-imagi-nation-

Haha.. damn lame.. was forced to go for some stupid lecture tts suppose to help in ur memory skills.. end up im the only sec/JC guy in it.. all the pri sch kids, parents, and me.. stupid.. shouldn't even have attended in the first place..
Then got the 'lessons', and since i was the only 'high qualification' guy, i was given a one-to-one.. "Value for money!!!", my mum said.. |||-.-
End up l learnt the meanings of some chem words, and my bro manage to go on stage and recall and recite 30 words from a list w/out an error!! i was like, omg.. way cool.

2006-02-02T19:12:00.000+08:00

i am weird today.. maybe its because im reading a book now, again.. i get very easily influenced by the environment i am in.. if ppl around me work hard, i'll work hard too.. if im into a book, then i'll juz shut off my real life and see everything 'real' in the book's perspective.. i think this ability is very cool, but it detaches me from everyone until i finish that book..
Currently into this book 'the curious incident of the dog in the night-time'. haha, querky book, querky me. i think everyone should read that book, and see how different u are with Christopher.
i still remember 'the little prince', and how we can see ourselves in the different people in the different planets.. the lamppost guy, the king, etc.. k, tym to go.. gonna start on my GM essay.. why give us until 20th to finish a essay?? bleah..

2006-02-02T00:30:00.001+08:00

some people say that i shouldn't look down on myself, but im more concerned of those ppl that actually look down on me..
maths: ar?? u got 10 ar?? cheater.
econs: ar?? u got 10 ar?? mugger.
(im juz pointing out.. no harm done)
its really tiring sometimes to prove to other ppl tt im better. dun even have to strain my eyes to see that some ppl around me are proving all the time. in the end, now pon-chiat, no more motivation. i learnt a lesson, tt people should hav a laidback lifestyle, juz know deep down that "hey, i can do this, they can't.. na-ni-na-ni-bobo.." tts sufficiently satisfying for me.. :)

maths trainings are getting more fun. dead serious.

Quotes after watching memoirs for the 2nd time:
-every step that i take, has been to bring myself closer to u..
-my life has turned into a game, where only she know the rules..

2006-01-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

i vow NEVER to eat the last jellyfish sushi on display when CNY is around the corner from now onwards...
Qn: whats worst than having fever or food poisoning b4 CNY??
Ans: having them both..

2006-01-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

gp finally seems interesting to me, with all the science and tech theme this term.. tsk.. but nobody seems to share the same passion as me.. whahaha.. all alone..
1st time not gg back to grps/sji b4 cny.. but it feels like nothing's missing.. they say time can dilute everything, and i couldn't agree more.. im just not having enough good memories in sji......

S'pore customer services really sucks.. out of 4 cashiers i visited today, only 1 replied me back with a 'happy cny to u too'.. make me feel like a loser greeting them in the first place.. wads wrong with being friendly?? bleah.

2006-01-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

haha.. this is a 'return thanks' entry, to zy.. tsk, for buying all the clothes with me.. its suppose to be we all get together, but i got them faster in the end.. erms, 1 pair of shoes, 1 t-shirt, 1 polo tee, 1 pair of socks, and a jacket.. tts basically everything tt i have bought this month.. haha.. i think i trust my taste of clothings better now.. yay!! and i think i have had the experience of spending more than what i can afford.. it was fabulous and rewarding, but dangerous all the same.. haha..

Actually this entry is just to thank zy. =)

2006-01-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

A SILENT AFFAIR AT WHOMPOA
Really thought that today will be fun,
and a day for making up to be done,
But it ended up as oppressive as ever.
Though our friendship may quaver,
Hope u still regard me as a friend,
coz i'll always lend u a helping hand.
unless the problem is still with me,
then i'll need ur guidance, to be someone u want me to be.
Coz i ain't want another repeat of today.
as though the 'mute' button was pressed instead of 'play'.

i yearn her purple diary

Why are races always run in a counterclockwise direction?

2006-01-23T22:57:00.000+08:00

you know whats the greatest distance in the world?
- its when i am right in front of u and you don't believe i love u

2006-01-22T23:05:00.000+08:00

had the longest walk i had for a long time.. haha.. non-stop for like, 12.00pm-1am.. im deadbeat!! frm queensway to the whole stretch of town, and chinatown.. everybody got their stuff, only i didn't get anything for myself.. got a pen though.. thanks yvt!! bon voyage!!

2006-01-19T23:19:00.000+08:00

GP lecture was meaningful today. Maybe its something i can relate to, as i am a more science person than a religious one. It brings a new perspective to my life, and i ain't bullshitting!! haha.. Nothing much to blog about.. everyday's the same to me.. how b-o-r-i-n-g

"Many consider that the conflict of religion and science is a temporary phase, and that in due course the two mighty rivers of human understanding will merge into a mightier Amazon of comprehension."

2006-01-18T23:39:00.000+08:00

PTM is totally useless.. and im being spied on!! wow.. haha

im lost at words, and i don't decipher emails i wrote. isn't it clear as water??
5 masters, and counting + 1 queen = do not peep at my secrets.. told ya i hated being spied on..

2006-01-18T00:14:00.000+08:00

learnt a new word form lisa today.. its called 'animosity'.. it means enemy or an example of powerful, often active, hatred. Used in 'there is great animosity between A & B'..

tt word juz came up in my head b4 i slept last night while reflecting on the class as a WHOLE.. i didn't know the meaning at tt moment, but i was sure it wuz linked to the atmosphere i felt in the daytime.. i feel terrible and choking.. im unsure of the what really happened in between, but i juz yearn for the time we had at the start of last year. Though it means close bonds are not yet forged, at least no bonds are broken.. i feel incomplete..

Five more days are left,
but it seems e'vryone's deaf
to your presence

I tried to be organise
but it never ended nice
sucha failure

2006-01-14T23:53:00.000+08:00

shopping spree is a good word to describe today..

im borned into a family of anti-pink
mum's gonna throw my shirt down the sink!!
grey shirt is another option
to wear on cny's celebration

in the darkness, may you find a ray of light, a glimmer of hope.

2006-01-14T01:26:00.000+08:00

5 5-syllable poems
-grassjelly

im never alone
coz i got my phone
waiting for the tone
licking on a cone.

can't i have a date
since im never late
at this current rate
should i leave to fate?

physics go and rot
brains are all i've got
lectures, nothing's jot
teachers? dot dot dot

to become noble
one must be able
like sorting cable
under the table

against river flow
is so hard to row
makes the boat go slow
by the time, moon glow

quite cool eh? tsktsk..

2006-01-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

click here, then look out for 2t24 at the extreme right(its a sun shape.. quite easy to identify)... but , u'll be extremely lucky if u can find it anyway.. draw/write something around it, its a time capsule, in a way.. haha

2006-01-12T20:21:00.000+08:00

|im nothing but a tool|
Nice = Max's Oreo Cheesecake
Yummy = Jamaica Banana Cake
Delicious = Macadamia Nut Cheesecake
Costly = Destiny's Child pasta

2006-01-11T19:41:00.000+08:00

Argh.. phone sent for repairs.. darn, hav to use my brother's phone.. he looked so reluctant la.. then i found out i hav written a draft for my poem i wuz abt to post today!! omg.. it'll be lost if they format the phone!! :( i wrote it last midnight, and i can't remember a thing what i wrote now.. snapple's game iz damn nice.. but quite boring after 50 questions.. end up my score's 43/54.. beat tt.

time to do maths

2006-01-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

i finally broke the 'sound' barrier i had last week, or so i think.. haha
i am allocated to the best teachers available, i think.. not to belittle mr tan or smth.. maybe his teaching style juz doesn't suit me.. mr low left a gd 1st impression on me, hope he can live up to it.. tuition starting again.. sucks la.. more of bugis, $-face, and the Great Divide.. :(

a very THANK YOU to those who sabo-ed me in econs today.. now i have to start the econs blog.. thanks alot ar, assholes

2006-01-08T15:30:00.000+08:00

This is this cat. This is is cat. This is how cat. This is to cat. This is keep cat. This is a cat. This is dumbass cat. This is busy cat. This is for cat. This is forty cat. This is seconds cat. * Now go back and read the THIRD word in each sentence from the top. Betcha you can't resist passing it on

Jokes abt u:
- Yo mama so fat, she step on a scale it says to be continued....
- Yo mama's so fat..... She's on both sides of the family
- Your mama so fat when she went to the beach green peace tried to push her back into the water
- Ya mama so stupid, she stared at a can of apple juice because it said 'concentrate'.
- Yo mama's so old, she knew Burger King when he was a prince
- yo mama's so ugly, when u dropped her off at the mall, u got a ticket for littering.
- yo-mama is soo big, she makes godzilla look like an action figure!!

i have strength, i have strife, but with no friends, what's left of life?

2006-01-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

one week has past, and im still not yet out of the daze.. not talking to anyone unnecessary or not.. Thanks to ppl out there who actually listens to me talk, coz i sumtyms dun even know wad im talking abt.. im more of a listener, than a talker.. sometyms i juz get jealous of ppl who can talk non-stop:(
i guess i can sense ppl's emotions better than others, but its juz that sometimes i can do nothing to change things for the better.. i'm not gd wif words.. u can't expect me to pop up a Qn to u tt says,"Are you bored accompanying me?"
I mean, it's juz tt i can't find any topics to talk to anybody.. sometimes, in a convo, i can sense tt im suppose to start talking, but apparently, while some ppl think tt im juz stoning or walking alone, actually im straining my head to think of something to talk abt, and when all EYES are on me, i'll juz give a 1-sentence answer(or less), and then the situation gets real awkward.. u think i like tt huh??
maybe im juz an uninteresting guy, with a good pairs of ears, but with a mouth tt rarely opens.. i don't want to be alone, but it pains me to see ppl around me who wants to be talked but in the end, have to do all the talking instead..
i guess its real hard being my friend, and so, for all the ppl out there, a BIG thank you..

And yes, sometimes, its really tempting to be alone.. It's definitely less tiring for me to stop rake my brains over my problems with people.. But somehow, i have to try, coz they hav become pieces in me. W/out them, i don't feel whole.. In the past, i might have been an asshole and tell everyone your secrets or made you angry, but i hope u can still see a friend in me, for i may not have the solutions to all your problems, but at least i have completed half by juz listening to you.

"Friends are God's way of apologizing to us for our families."

2006-01-03T23:16:00.000+08:00

Sch sux big time. 1st day was NOT the way i anticipated it. Bad mooding. Basically stoned my way through the tutorials and lectures. People are acting extra-ordinary. Why can't everyone tone down? I fear 4 more terms of this. Hush hush.. The way i like..

MOAG | FD3 | IA2: The Meltdown | MI3 | TDVC | X-M3

friend
n.
1. a person that one likes and knows well
2. a familiar or helpful thing
3. a person who supports particular cause or organisation

2006-01-01T03:40:00.000+08:00

erm, happy new year.. hahas.. recieved a phone call at an unearthly hour.. lol, and now blogging at this unearthly hour too.. hmm, got a new haircut, went specs shopping.. couldn't find one tt can fit into our budget.. hahas.. anw, gg back tmr to order them after much persuasion to my mum.. bleah..
lol.. there's tofu street at this hour!! neva realised it.. now watching it.. My childhood show!! haha.. yawnz.. abit tired.. tried maths.. gave up.. now on Qn 10.. while everyone's out celebrating, im stuck here at my desk.. how exciting.. with my pencils and pens..

2005-12-28T18:24:00.000+08:00

2005

Looking back...

-my 1^st 3 months in CJC was memorable, new friendships were forged, old ones strengthened.

-Then come the time where some had to go to other JCs/poly.. while most contacts remained, some were lost forever.

-Mid-year came and past too soon.. A lot of time was spent in town and away from books, but it enable me to realize tt socializing is part of everyday's life, and tt I was somehow incomplete the whole of my SJI years.

-NDP rehearsals was fulfilling and it became my Saturday 'job'. When it was finally over, I felt somehow lost, as though a part of me was taken away.

-14^th Aug, the day I dread at tt time. but now, I have realized tt not everything can be my way.. sometimes, things will work out better if left on their natural course.

-My birthday was my most memorable day, period.

-Promos came, and gone in a flash. Somehow, I feel tt I'm cheating the people around me, with all the last minute studies with the teachers. I attribute my results not to me, but my teachers.

-Then came the preparations for the supplementary papers for my classmates. It was kinda sad, to see that I might not get to see these classmates again for next yr. This was the driving force tt kept me by their sides, recommending tutors and trying my best to answer their questions. Though I viewed myself as a distracter most of the time..

-Working experience was not really fulfilling, but ZY made it up to accompany me to lunches and breaks throughout the 4 weeks.. Never had I know her any better.

-Glad to have some sort of breaks in between the weeks with the Kayaking Expedition and the class bbq. It was really fun, and tiring.. New acquaintances were made as well.. Pre-bbq period was really hectic, and the rain on tt day did dampen our spirits a little, but it was an overall success.

Accolades, to be given according to age, from youngest to oldest. Please do not take to heart my negative comments. They are really how I feel about you.

-[Same frequency award] Though I've only seen you less than 4 times, it's still a great joy knowing you. It brings me a smile whenever a made you laugh. Glad to have you as a friend, if you still remember my name!!

-[Given the cold shoulder award] I am glad you treat me as a friend, coz I think tt I am letting you down.. I have grown cold towards you, for some reason unknown to me. No longer have I laugh heartedly at your jokes.. Forgive me if I had offended you.. sorry

-[Best fren award] What can I say? Hmm.. You're the one who gives me all the valuable advice, and another perspective into things.. But it seems to me that you care a lot of what others think of you, and sometimes you overdo it.. Relax lar.. hahas But, to sum it up, our friendship has never been so close to as it is now.

-[Brothers award] 2 of the 'four guys' in our class. I am not really close to you ppl.. but I am really glad you guys treat me in your group. I can really talk well with you’all.. Hope we can bond closer next yr..

-[Cheerful girl award] Can talk with you about anything under the sun. And she’s really understanding. I wouldn’t have given my pay to anyone, and yet she's willing to give some to her younger sister. Where can you find such a person?

-[I dunno what to say to u award] Until now, I still can't find a common topic to talk to u.. Rytes. But you have been one of my best friends, because whenever I been to town, it reminds me of your house and I'll think back of the happy memories I had in your company. Hurhur. Takkaire.

-[Shuai Ge award] I've gotta admit, you're the better looking guy in our class.. hahas.. you're what every girl wants, I guess.. lols.. I don’t really talk much with you, but I can tell tt you're the most mature of the 'four guys'.. hahas

-[Strong character award] All the while, I've never seen the soft side of you. Your mind appears to be juz like a stone, unable to crack through, and unable to fathom what you're thinking. You are someone not to be harassed with, but maybe all you needs is someone to care about for you to realize that the world is not such a cold & dark place.

-[Guai award] You are among guai-est girl I have seen. Please do not take it as a bad comment.. haha.. Maybe it's the way your mum handles you. Anyway, met since I met you from 1^st 3 months, you have struck me as someone who is easy to talk to. You may seem small, but you really have a big heart to go with it. You might not have to best advice, but at least you are still willing to listen to me talk, so Keep up the good work!!

-[Arch-enemy award] No, not tt you are my nemesis or smth.. Juz that both of us are HP freaks, but you adores Draco, but I doesn't.. Lols.. Anyway, you're whine-y at times, abit lazy, and sometimes take things abit for granted. Yet, there are those small things that you do tt makes you somewhat tolerable. You did console me before when I was down, well, most of the time, with your clowny antics.. A good fren to have, basically.

-[Beng award] Haha.. not really have much in contact with you too, but I must tell you that there are certain… hmm.. improvements to tt should be made in the coming year.. I won't tell you what, but you should realize yourself by now.. Stop acting beng too, haha.. there must be a better side of ur personality than tt!! :)

Any people out there whom i had not addressed, it's not that you are not my fren, juz that there is not enough things to write about you.. Take it as a compliment, since i'll assume tt i have nothing bad to say about u too.. hahas

2005-12-27T23:47:00.000+08:00

i recommend to you one book-Memoirs of a Geisha.. Though its not fantastically written, it was beautiful in the way it captivates your attention, juz like a geisha would(though i don't have the luck to meet one).. The book iz so stunningly beautiful, it can describe something so crude into eels and caves.. hahas..
anw, bad luck today.. no narnia, got flu instead.. maybe i should get an almanac like Chiyo do.. then maybe i'll find out something like "A most inauspicious time. Going out with friends and Movies must be avoided at all costs", "a good day to make a trip to the clinic".. haha

2005-12-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

of all weeks of the holiday.. muz come down with flu on the last 7days of freedom.. can't miss out narnia tmr.. 3 paracetamol pill, down you go!!!....

2005-12-26T13:52:00.000+08:00

-saw a long-time-no-see-fren yesterday.. nice..
-played LAN yesterday(yea, so loserr, x'mas playing LAN??).. okay.. so near to a GOD-LIKE, coz jas wuz sitting beside me... geddit??
-wasted money on midnight taxi fares.. tell u, taxi drivers are really smart.. last train ends at kranji, and there's a loooong line of taxis waiting to fetch those further.. k, gtg.. yay, narnia tmr

2005-12-25T02:37:00.000+08:00

happy christmas everyone!! haha.. kind of a sad sad year for ppl around the world.. anw, shall start drafting on a 'end-of-year report'.. hahas.. anw, juz talked to a sec1/2 best friend in SJI, and guess wad?! he's a SEA GAMES '05 SILVER MEDALLIST in SAILING!! omg.. tts like.. i noe a celebrity.. haha.. er, decided on wad pairs of shoes to get alr.. now juz waiting for the rit moment to buy.. yay!! getting my first bank card too.. haha(start withdrawing weekly nex yr, cool!!).. and new glasses from my mum as x'mas present!! haha.. no contacts, thank god..
*ps-oh, btw, can some1 enlighten me?? does the 12 days of christmas starts before or after 25th Dec??

2005-12-23T23:58:00.000+08:00

finally back from my work... neva going back there again.. unless my bank runs dry of galleons again at the end of 2006!!! can't wait to get back to sch.. lols.. anw, juz reached home, and immediately did a headcount of what i got this x'mas season(not really hard, unless u can't count to ten)... haha..

hmm, its not really TEN, but i'm still glad, really glad.. u don't get such stuff in SJI.. haha.. anw, no, tt doesn't mean tt all are frm gers.. haha, im not tt popular(i'm reminded not to be big-headed)..
A big thank-you to...drumm rollll.....

silin - for your wonderfully decorated handmade card and your packet of 'imported' cookies tt i painfully shared among the classmates during our bbq
zy - for tt card u think its "trashy", but it means alot to me. as well as the bottle tt i luckily chosen.. efforts appreciated(sorry to tt some1, i don't really like to change my present)
cheryl & family - for the humorous and long written card as well as the presents.. Love them all..!!
eugene - for tt special card tt signifies our long and everlasting friendship, and the pains from my eyes deciphering your 'unique' handwriting.. hahas

er, i got a special present from the ministry of defence too..

haha.. it says tt im exempted frm NS...not.... Tt was my wish, but santa didn't grant me.. muz have done smth naughty this yr.. I'll be frank, im not those "i'll gladly serve the nation" kind of person, neither am i those cowards who purposely fail a poly module juz so tt he can have half a year more of freedom.. hmm, quite stupid actually, when u think tt it'll still boil down to around 2 years.. lols.. resentment.. anw, merry x'mas EVE!!

2005-12-22T10:23:00.000+08:00

i've passed my breaking point.. i gave up.. not sick, but very very tired.. i cannot control my emotions, let alone others more volatile than me..

work stress has crept all over me.. speaking incoherently am i now..

the last time i smiled,

was the last time u grinned.

seems to me like a million years,

the way u smiled, right up to your ears.

december came, past.

but your face was there, never collecting dust.

coming and going of my peers,

and also for you, my flowing tears.

good things never last,

just as my love for u, will some how rust.

2005-12-16T17:48:00.000+08:00

The kayaking trip was alrit... though it ended of in a bad note.. don't really want to dwell much into it, juz wan to say sorry to a special someone, and to thank another one for being the 'middle man'..

2005-12-11T02:28:00.000+08:00

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fluffy and sometimes grainy and a bit hard to
chew. You are a necessity and fit well with
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How do you taste?
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2005-12-11T01:57:00.000+08:00

radical change??
haha.. i figure this template could stand in for a while, before i come up with something tt's really started from scratch.. hmm.. but there's something wrong with this new skin.. somehow it can't display chinese characters... bleah.. i hav to delete one entry as a result.. one very important one.. haiz..
really miss all my family now.. leaving house tmr, for the kayaking expedition tt'll make us circle a quarter of the waters of singapore probably a hundred million times.. humph.. none of my classmates are in my group.. how saddening iz tt?? not really keen to make more new friends.. lols.. contented with myself alr.. :)
yay, got myself a ZEN.. haha.. guess Creative outplayed Apple in our class, for now.. It's not stylo-milo spanking new player, but at least i won't be bored anymore with my trips back-and-forth kallang and my grandparent's house.. happy..
Oh, and be sure to visit IKEA when u r feeling tired.. the sofas and beds there are sssuperb and they can send u to dreamland before u can say, "comfortable..."zZZ

2005-12-07T11:54:00.000+08:00

A week of firsts:

- first time eat pretzel from Auntie Anne's.. haha.. cinammon sugar taste much nicer than chocolate mint.. lol

- first time at Fei Cui... The ban mian serving is huge, but its still not filling for me... i nid one bowl more!!!

- first time i was ANGRY for as long as i can remember... Though only for a short time, it wuz still counted as being furious..

most probably getting my 1st pay check of this yr this week... can't wait... i nid to clear of most of my debts.. haha.. Yipee...! still got kayaking trip to look 4ward to... xmas gathering on the 20th? bbq? midnight cycling? bring it ON!!! haha... juz hope tt i can stay awake the following day at work.. :(

2005-12-04T13:33:00.000+08:00

Home sweet home.. yay!! got a letter tt says i m in the top 25% in CJ?! hahas.. whatta JOKE.. feel good though.. neva got tt 'honor' before.. lol.. deciding to be nice and send x-mas cards this xmas.. all of u out there, be automatic and send me ur address.. lol.. first come first serve.. only 12 lucky ones will get to own the limited edition chao ching's xmas cards!! lols

2005-12-02T09:30:00.000+08:00

another one of those secret entry.. really can't wait to have back my own comp, so tt i can upload more songs into 'my' part-time Zen photo player.. But the current employer(zy) doesn't want to issue any leaves for it... :(
Yay, all the supp-ers are promoted..!! Contented, convivial, delighted, ecstatic, elated, exultant, flying high, gay, glad, gleeful, gratified, hopped up, intoxicated, jolly, joyful, joyous, jubilant, laughing, light, lively, looking good, merry, mirthful, overjoyed, pleased, satisfied, sparkling, sunny, thrilled.. Tt basically sums up my emotions.. haha.. i wasn't sure i was of much help, but at least i was there for them.. haha..
yay, can't wait for the kayaking expdt to start.. exercise my mussels, and break tt 6 pull-ups barrier.. watch it, eugene..

2005-11-28T09:51:00.000+08:00

i am like secretly typing this entry... now in my boring workplace... all adults around me... wrong frequencies.... sianz... thot tt i can at least talk to zy, but we'r in different floors!!! oh, and now tt i am working, i'll be staying in my grandparents house... = no comp... at least until the weekends..

oh, and i also can't see wad u all are typing in my tagboard now... my company sort of blocked the cbox thing... :(

all this for more cash... endure endure endure endure!!!

2005-11-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm, been busy these few days, even though i m not taking supp papers, it seems tt i am... i neva had a good break since sch ended... im now a teacher for my classmates!! hahas... though some1 say i m more of a distraction... wth... doesn't appreciate my effort.. lol
anw, saw eugene today.. Lamenting about his work experience to me for the next 1-2 hours.. hahas... walked around orchard, and he talk abt how he's gonna spend his $ on... Clothes? IMac? Phone? Bag? wth... JEALOUS...

Anw, we walked past this Apple(iPod company?), and chanced upon this advertisment gimmick..

Why did the Queen give an APPLE to Snow White?......

............Coz APPLE is EVIL.

Apple used apples? wth... tts how many hundreds of REAL apples!! Imagine how many Africans can fill their stomachs with those... Saddening...
Awwell, Good Luck to all the SUPP-ers once again... hope u'all will do well, as long as u put in ur utmost effort... -grins

2005-11-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

HP totally rox... but some ppl juz have too high an expectation of it... HOW to squeeze a 400++ pages of a book into a movie? wad u wan? a 24-h movie(though i dun mind)? hahas..
Stupid tutor.. Thought we could have another physics tuition on Saturday, but nobody brought the fees.. It's not as though we purposely did tt, BUT HE CANCELLED IT!!(Damn him)... Now how? Are the physics supp-ers gonna die? Hope Mr Tan can help them to study for the rest of the week..

And here, i wan to slam someone(not sure u'll read my blog, but juz to let u noe b4 ur supp)-
You should stop whining that you have no time or think that physics is too boring for you. Maybe you shouldn't even start work in the first place and started studying for ur supp last week.. How can you go overseas with that money u earned with the feeling that u won't promote?? STOP TALKING, START WORKING... everyone's touched their books.. what abt u? i lent u my guide books, but hav u really start sitting down to read them? U said u haven.. and i believe u too... 7-8 more days... u sure u can cover 1 topic in one day? not even i have that kinda confidence.. But wads done iz done, or rather, undone.... I hope u can double your efforts.. i'll do what i can to help u.. All the best to you(and the rest of the supp-ers).. U'll nid all the luck u can get..

2005-11-16T09:38:00.000+08:00

Yay... now at eugene's house... suppose to complete his 1000 piece puzzle, end up Winning-11 whole night.. Thot we could try out real-life in the soccer court, end up kena caught by police at 2am!! wth... SOMEONE PAOTOU US... and the officers were super sacarstic, till the point i really want to be charged wif 'Assault on police personnel'...

Police: "what are you doing lying on the floor? Counting stars? Looking For UFOs?"
CC & Eug: "............"

2005-11-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

-WARNING-

Do not waste your money watching exorcism of emily rose... it'll exorcise ur butt out of the cinema seat before u say "it sux"...

BEWARE: Spoilers ahead

For those of you out there, who do not want to get possessed, here are some tips:

1. Do not put a clock at ur bedside.. If its a must, then at least turn the clock facing away from you.
2. If u suay suay wake up at 3am(prime witching hour), continue sleeping.
3. Do not, (i repeat) Do not, walk out of your room, even if u smell something burning.
4. Replace all your wooden doors with 1ton metal doors, so that they will not swing around without wind.

What to do if you are possessed or touched by the dark forces?

1. Call in the pest busters in your house to remove all insects.. U'll be labelled psychotic, if u r seen eating them.
2. Do not eat the drug Gambotrol(or smth like dat). It'll affect the exorcism, if u are possessed. Don't listen to ur doctor. Follow the priest. At least he'll get the blame if u died in the process of it..
3. Even when you can see the dark forces, remember the golden rule when crossing a road-"Look Left, Look Right, Look Left Again.".
4. Go be a gymnast. You could earn golds in competitions with your ability to contort your body.
5. Go be a multi-lingual maths teacher. You can teach people how to count from "one" to "six" in SO many languages.

Smallprint: For those exorcism fans out ther, this is purely my point of view, and it does not represent any other party. Sorry for any inconveniences or trauma caused.

2005-11-10T19:51:00.000+08:00

physics before birthday celebration is seriously not productive... Anw, went to buy a can of whipped cream tt cost more than a cake, and everything ended up polluted after it got whacked by cheryl's face.. Urgh... and, CHERYL, I AM SO NOT SORRY THAT I THREW UR WATCH DOWN THE RUBBISH BIN...
3rd tym in my life i took a n... ne.. neo... fine, a NEOPRINT... hahas... i think eugene's more reluctant than me, but end up he's so entu abt editing the pictures and add effects.. hahas.. too bad they r too small to be posted here.. :(

Bill Gates and the CD of Power

Recently one of my friends, a computer wizard, paid me a visit. I mentioned that I had recently installed Windows on my PC, told him how happy I was with this operating system and showed him the Windows CD. To my astonishment and distress he threw it into my micro-wave oven and turned it on.

I was upset because the CD had become precious to me, but he said "Do not worry, it is unharmed." After a few minutes he took the CD out, gave it to me and said "Take a close look at it."

To my surprise the CD was quite cold and it seemed to have become thicker and heavier than before. At first I could not see anything, but on the inner edge of the central hole I saw an inscription, in lines finer than anything I have ever seen before. The inscription shone piercingly bright, and yet remote, as if out of a great depth.

4F6E65204F5320746F2072756C65207468656D20616C6C2C204F6E65204F5320746F
2066696E64207468656D2C0D0A4F6E65204F5320746F206272696E67207468656D20
616C6C20616E6420696E20746865206461726B6E6573732062696E64207468656D

"I cannot read the fiery letters," I said. "No," he said, "but I can. The letters are Hex, of an ancient mode, but the language is that of Microsoft, which I shall not utter here. But in common English this is what it says"

"One OS to rule them all, One OS to find them
One OS to bring them all and in the darkness bind them."

2005-11-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

...HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHERYL...
i seriously dun wan to put this up, at this hour, but aiya... on account that u r my classmate, i'll put it up..

2005-11-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

OP's over, finally... it really sucks... dun really wan to talk abt it.. Dun wanna giv all of u out ther who still haven had their presentation any stress.. Lols..
anw, i got a temporary(until thursday) Timberland bag today!! Oooo... It looks so nice, n my everyone said its nice.. Haiz, all good things has to end... Thanx zy!! Can't believe she spend $200 on a single day on so many things!!!! Wth... hahas... too bad the stuff she bought aren't for me... :(
Lols, juz kidding.. hahas.. anw, people, if u r on bottle-hunting, make sure u don't go to marina area.. seriously.. there are no bottles for sale for a 1km radius..
Weee.... i GOT MY TIXS FOR HARRY POTTER 4 on the 16th!!! soo happy!! i m gonna be (among) the first to watch it here in Singapore!! So cooll....! never had a sneak ticket before.. i m so gonna enjoy it.. can wait for 16th to come.. now, for other tix.....

15th Nov 7.30pm
Chinese High Drama centre
class concert
$6

wonder anyone's interested...

2005-11-05T21:28:00.000+08:00

i can't wait for harry potter 4 to come out on the big screens!! saw the clip of malfoy turning into a ferret.. haha.. it wuz funny.. mad-eye totally rocks

2005-11-03T00:21:00.000+08:00

why are ther so many brands of chocs? Lindt, royce', godivas,... why can't ther be a standardized brand? kit-kat maybe? then it won't be so hard to return ppl a favor, or get labelled a CHEAT juz because i bought a different brand..

Hey, yokeleng, cheryl, ziyi and silin, if u can pass ur promos. i'll buy u a chocolate bar alrit? and no, its not a Mars bar.. Its frm the 10th planet called Godiva.. lll-.-

i suck at TALKING.. how to improve my oral-communication skills in 5 days?! Op is drawing close, and i think i m THE lousiest of the lot.. i really nid to improve!!! Some1 teach me how to speak.. i hate cliques.. they are NEVER RELIABLE, and THEY NEVER UNDERSTAND ME..

2005-10-30T14:53:00.000+08:00

Today, i had my first:

- chance to wear my new formal shirt.. everyone claims its so nice.. hahax..

- view of the tea ceremony in a chinese wedding.. lol, everyone's so happy at my grandma's place.. infected me with laughter, n i sort of 4got tt i m actually missing out on the class's sentosa outing.. :(
- step in the Hilton hotel.. wow.. everythings so nice.. U actually nid a keycard to access to the guest's floor!! but the restaurant at the top floor iz abit small.. nvm, the food is nice..!! tt makes up for everything!!
- taste of red wine.. Urgh.. uh, describe it? its bitter, n i can't wait to gulp down mouthfuls of orange juice after i had a sip.. i only stopped at my first glass.. its that bad..
- taste of champagne.. Ahhh... this is much better than red wine.. the hot-in-the-throat feeling.. n the taste iz much smoother than red wine too.. i had 3 small glasses of that!! hahaz..

Tt basically sums up everything nice tt happened today.. can't wait for the next relative to wed.. then i'll hav more champagne!! Lol.. 'AO' chinese around the corner.. shall start reading chinese newspaper tmr, then hav an early rest.. PPL, rmb to bring ur ENTRY PROOF, I/C, and ur DICTIONARY.. hahaz.. Good luck ppl..
And for all those in my physics tuition class, meet at bugis control station at 3.45pm(be punctual!!) on tuesday, bring $160, study up on kinematics and dynamics.. attempt the tys mcqs if possible.. and try and remember the dates that you are not free for the upcoming dates till the sup papers, because the tutor wants to arrange 6 lessons during this period of time.. work hard!!

2005-10-28T20:21:00.000+08:00

yay!! i m an actor for a day!! hahaz.. pon sch today to do pw at angeline's house.. end up watching '50 first dates' on dvd in the morning instead.. hahaz.. then acted out in the videos tt are suppose to be inserted into the slides.. and angeline, "I am not a OLD MAN!! i am juz a good actor!!".. hahaz..
oh mann, i got a feeling i m gonna miss out on alot tml when i can't go to t24's sentosa outing.. but, nvm.. i'll hav buffets n a banquet to satisfy myself at my cousin's wedding.. and sorry to all the kiki-ians.. i can't go for all the meetings u'all hav organised for as long as i can remember..But there is always a reason or another.. NOT EXCUSES...

2005-10-25T02:03:00.000+08:00

2005-10-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

oh mann, if only i could add 1 more table here.. hahaz.. i wanna add a food column!! Juz had my first Sakae lunch buffet, n chun kin introed me all tt he noe..

But overall, i think Jap food doesn't suit my... 'refined' taste.. All de chowanmushi, miso soup,... i would rather go for... roast duck rice!! omg.. de one in de hawker centre opp. queensway shopping centre super shiok ar.. It's a must go for all bowlers on the way to Mt Faber for practice..
At first. i was abit put off by de 'burnt' look, but when u eat it, it iz like heavenly la.. It melts in your mouth!! lols.. Too bad its in small portions.. But nvm.. juz prepare $6 nex tym when i bring u'all ther.. order 2 plates!! kkk.. gtg.. finish up my OP slides.. it seems tt our group is always lagging behind.. sianz

2005-10-23T23:18:00.000+08:00

today, i experienced the joy of shopping.. i finally felt what it is like to buy anything you want w/out regards of the price.. 4 pieces for $100+.. A sorry to all whose birthdays falls after today.. i now have $0 budget..

Can't wait to show them all to you.. Maybe i'll wear them all out one day, but till then, the rights of looking at them are all reserved for me.. eternal bliss

2005-10-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

Yay… finally can relax after handing in the written report.. Learnt a lesson – neva leave everything till the last minute.. Panic until like siao.. Anyway, because of that, I decided to shop for a shirt tt looks more formal for my cousin’s wedding 1 WEEK AHEAD!! But argh.. couldn’t find anything nice today.. wasted my whole day walking ard..

Saw an old friend while shopping, and we sort of talked about everything under the sun.. neva seen her for more than 4 years liao.. it’s a wonder I can still recognize her.. Hahaz.. She was saying how I seemed to have grown a lot on the outside, but still the same old joker inside me.. Tsk.. JC iz suppose to change everyone.. I wonder why it doesn’t happen to me..? hmm…

2005-10-19T23:41:00.000+08:00

This iz so retarded la, but since u mentioned my name, i'll hav to do it la... 4 ur sake... er, more like entertainment sake...

7 things that scare the hell outta me
1. cockroaches
2. carrots
3. other ppl crying
4. life w/out frenz
5. life w/out food
6. life w/out money
7. de end of my life

7 things/people I love most
1. Horror movies
2. Harry potter
3. Good grades
4. Nice people
5. Me
6. Myself
7. I

7 important stuff in my room
1. 1st thing 1st. can i have my own room? I rented out mine, u see...
2. my comp
3. my wardrobe
4. my bed
5. me
6. those are the few things tt are MINE in my 'room'
7. -

7 random facts about me...
1. i love to read?
2. i only watch the tv for news
3. i can read finish a book in a single visit in Times bookshop
4. i like animals.. too bad i can't hav a pet coz my mum hates them...
5. i hate anything spicy on my rice... spicy food are okay... weird?
6. i'm anti-social..
7. i lack self-confidence..

7 things I plan to do before i kick the bucket..
1. Bungee
2. Skydiving
3. Scuba diving
4. Earn my first million!!
5. get angry for more than 2 hours
6. dance
7. get a immortality pill

7 things that I can do
1. geog
2. physics
3. run
4. do 5 pull-ups
5. tell lame jokes
6. cry in any touching/sad movie
7. talk to animals/plants

7 things I can't do
1. get motion sickness
2. get tired
3. communicate wif fellow human beings
4. improve my econs..
5. can't beat jun ren in chinese
6. can't beat ziyi in maths(ps-w/out Ms Chia's help)
7. can't beat cheryl in whining

7 things I say the most
1. huh?
2. wth
3. haha..
4. tsk
5. huh? really ar?
6. thanx
7. sorry

7 celeb crushes
1. haha
2. this
3. is
4. funny.
5. nobody.
6. serious.
7. i swear.

7 People who have to do this
1. YOU
2. U
3. EWE
4. EWW...
5. ni3
6. this iz getting retarded..
7.
fill in the blanks yourself? cant think of anyone who will do this.

2005-10-17T18:31:00.000+08:00

Yea, promos results are out, well, almost.. except for GP n Chinese.. But seriously, i don't care about them.. All i care is that i got relatively good grades for my 3 subs in promos.. from mid-yrs FEE to promos ABE... hahaz.. Great? i think its all thanx to the teachers.. for staying back and study with me before the exams.. kudos to the teachers!!
For the rest of the people out ther who didn't get the results they want, SERIOUSLY, FACE THE FACTS.. Start working on it la.. If i can get from FEE to ABE, i don't get why some of you should feel depressed.. I noe some of you might say that i dun understand how u'all feel, but do i care?! I JUZ WAN ALL OF YOU TO PROMOTE WITH ME.. iz that so difficult to understand? :(

2005-10-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

Lee Sum Wan : Hello, can I speak to Annie Wan?
Mr. Saw Lee : Yes, you can speak to me.
Lee Sum Wan : No, I want to speak to Annie Wan!
Mr. Saw Lee : You are talking to someone! Who is this?
Lee Sum Wan : I'm Sum Wan. And I need to talk to Annie Wan! It's urgent.
Mr. Saw Lee : I know u are someone and u want to talk to anyone! But what's this urgent matter about?
Lee Sum Wan : Well just tell my sister Annie Wan that our brother, Noe Wan was involved in an accident. Noe Wan got injured and now Noe Wan is on his way to the hospital.
Mr. Saw Lee : Look, if no one was injured and no one was sent to hospital from the accident that isn't an urgent matter! You may find this hilarious but I don't have time for this!
Lee Sum Wan : Yes you are so rude! Who are you?
Mr. Saw Lee : I'm Saw Lee.
Lee Sum Wan : Yes! You should be sorry. Now give me your name.

Hehez.. an fren of mine send me this.. thot it wuz funny enough to be put into my blog.. Hahaz.. I am losing my touch as the class joker.. damn tt eugene.. hahaz.. Anw, project iz way overdue, but i think we can still make it for the final deadline which iz this wednesday.. hope to accomplish something by then.. And lisa, stop putting all the blame on yourself.. its not ur fault.. U r still a great and inspiring group leader.. hahaz.. kk.. gtg..

2005-10-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

weeee..... sorry to keep everyone waiting.. hahaz.. finally got it updated.. anyway, iz everyone fine wif my new skins?? any more complains?? hahaz.. better not have... coz i finally spend some time on building this.. it's my sweat n tears!! But not 4getting cheryl, ziyi, rachel, n yvette... Hahaz.. thanx thanx.. drats.. i cannot chi1 luan3 fan4!!! muz do everything myself!! Grrr...
Yups, Dodgeball Champs.. Man-of-de-Match?? nah.. i think its de team effort.. Everyone took part, including Grace.. yups, tts gd... we can't ostracize her all de time rit? Tsk..
K, i think i spend enough time on the net.. i spent lyk 2 hours to edit de format of my tag-board only la.. tsk.. tt's lyk super slow.. nvm, can't blame a noob.. hehez.. I M IMPROVING!!!....

2005-09-18T15:21:00.000+08:00

HAPPY Mid-Autumn FESTIVAl... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENA & JUN REN...!
got news from parents tt my grandma's hospitalised... Internal bleeding in the stomach, or smth lyk dat.. Sounds serious, coz my mum's voice wuz trembling when she called to ask me to prepare lunch myself.. Really wanna see her.. But my parents dun allow.. Wads wif their prob?? say tt i shouldn't let this affect my studies.. Sad case..

'Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.'

2005-09-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, wuz a real letdown... Can't even study finish the first 3 topics of econs.. reallyy terrible.. haiz.. but it muz be a great day for ziyi and tricia, the birthday girls?? hahas.. can't believe eugene bought such a nice(and obviously not cheap) watch for ziyi.. Hahas, and he says that its all because he started talking to her.. wad reason iz THAT?! tsktsk..

on the MRT back home, talked to eugene(that friend) again.. we two sure cramped alot of words in the journey from bishan to yewtee.. hahas.. seriously ar, those ppl who dun know eugene, you should get to know him.. he'z such a great friend to talk to, and if you are in any kind of trouble, he's always ther to lend a helping hand or two... :)

Hmm, i hope this is the last entry i have to write before promos end, but its highly unlikely.. anyway, i am now in this self-imposed curfew la, hope it works.. Less SMS, Less Online time, and Less time out... Promos iz coming!! Stressed, among other things too..

messed up life, i have

2005-09-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

hahas, well, its time to move on, and i did... hahas, wads wrong with not having a girlfriend?? i dunno, n i m not gonna find out abt it anytime soon... Anyway, EPIDEMIC IN THE HOUSE... my whole family's infected with conjuvitis.. tts red eye in scientific terms..tsktsk..so sad case la.. now, i m the only 1 who iz almost healthy, so i m suppose to get meals for my whole family.. sians... anyway, got nothing to blog.. hahas.. PROMOS COMING...

Let me ask you a question: If..
1 = 5,
2 = 25,
3 = 125,
4 = 625,
What does 5 = ?

If you are busy calculating whats 5^5(tts 3125), then you are wrong. Did it ever occured to you that 5 actually equals to 1?
In our lives, whenever we met a problem, we usually jump to our own conclusion.
Why not take a step back and look at the big picture? Only then can you find the best solution.

sometimes, memories are more precious than possessions

2005-09-04T15:54:00.000+08:00

Decided to remove the pic of my sore eye.. Coz some ppl express their discomfort over it.. Seems to me tt they believe tt they will kena juz by looking.. ITS WRONG.. No scientific evidence!! Hahas.. Its juz a very contagious disease, tts all. Anyway, i dun have nice eyes to boast of, hor eugene? hahas

2005-09-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

Grr.. Y muz i kena sore eyes now?? sian... suay suay holiday muz kena... Anyway, saw Jian Ping off yesterday... can't believe he got Economy Class tix... he so damn filthy rich lar... tsktsk.. Anyway, i seeked the advice of that 0.01%. n she kinda agrees wif my friend too(check my previous entry)... tsk... anyway, yup, i have loosen my grip, n i have fallen... It'll take sometime for me to get up again, but i will, somehow... Wish me luck then... hahas

2005-09-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

today, during the walk down memory lane to sji...
i wuz reminded by my friend that sometimes, i have to let go off stuff that doesn't belong... I have been thinking about this for a long time, and i thot that he's quite true.. i am like clinging on to the hopeful 0.01%.. and it izzn't likely to happen.. so how?? dilemna..

Scenario 1:
I cling on to that 0.01%, then hope for the best??
Scenario 2:
I give up, then start frm scratch... but the possibility of it izzn't far frm 0.01% anyway...

So how?? i decided to cling on... i noe this entry quite retarded.. but i juz wan to highlight my despair and depression.. tsltsl.. haiz.. lyf suck

2005-09-01T01:24:00.000+08:00

Oh mann, tt's what we all unanimously call - a NICE BAG

2005-08-27T09:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday night too tired to 'on' the comp, so the first thing when i woke up today iz to blog!! hahas.. hmm, yesterday wuz really fun, cuz i can visit eugene's house b4 the concert.. cheryl iz so excited to enter the house, she slipped on the smooth smooth floor.. as if tts not enough, she then went on a slipping craze in his house... eugene muz hav been discontaminating his house since last night.. hahas..
oh, n the highlight of the visit iz actually to play PS2... Bomberman iz not really fun coz i always suicide myself.. Argh... But winning-11 iz fun lar, coz me n kelv beat eug n yokeleng 2-1, or izzit 3-1? hahaz.. dun under estimate yokeleng, coz she iz better than me when i first played tt game... Aft tt game, kelv beat me 2:1.. i considered tt a win for me, coz if i m not wrong, i got trashed by him 9:0 before.. hahas
Oh, den aft tt game, we rushed to toa payoh to catch the concert.. on the train, we ended up continuing the discussion abt how opposite characters attracts(think che*yl and e*vin, jokin').. me n kelv also talked abt how important a VIP i am, and how the sch iz waiting for me to enter befor they start the show... End up we really were the LAST batch to enter before the first item starts, which proves the point, doesn't it?
Show wuz nice, but some complained it wuz too long, n should have cancelled some items.. I beg to differ.. the whole show wuz nice lar.. tsktsk, coz i didn't even sleep at all, which wuz an achievement... hahas, k, gtg... gonna mug in town now..

2005-08-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

today iz the coolest day of my life la... k, starting frm early in the morning:
1. ppl start to wish me happy birthday through smses... felt so touched, wanna cry...

2. den during the interview, got called out by ms chia..."Chaoching, ur eyes so small, n that cheeky smile of urs, as though u are up to no good again..." hahas... so farny... talked abt how i study n stuff lyk dat...
ms chia:"what work are u gonna do today?"
cc:"celebrate my birthday"
ms chia:"what work are u gonna start tmr?"
cc:"tmr got concert"
ms chia:"wad abt the break btwn ur dismissal and the concert?"
cc:"go eugene house"
ms chia:"do work ar?"
cc(hands playing an invisible PS controller)
ms chia:"sighs..."

3. So fun, got so many presents today larh... will put up pictures of them in no tym, aft i asked my slave to do it... tsktsk... i can't wait to show off my bag... sO niCe Lar...

4. wad's the most retarded thing to do on ur b'day??
Ans: go see a doctor... so moronic la, muz come down wif flu today... sianz... but at least i hav an excuse to slp tmr during lessons if it gets boring...
mr tan:"excuse me, chaoching, can you please wake up?"
cc:"i m tiredd..., i have an mc"
mr tan:"i am sorry, but that is not an excuse, can you go and wash your face? Meanwhile, i give all of you a 10mins water break. Be back at 12.30pm"

2005-08-24T21:22:00.000+08:00

oh... found out frm eugene tt blogs are suppose to be insightful and meaningful... but i think mine izzn't, coz i m not a very insightful nor meaningful person, rmb?? once in a while, i'll insert a few lame jokes, juz to keep the 'no. of people visited' above 0... hahahas..

today rocks la, finally learnt how to 'hook' in bowling... it seems so easy lar... hahas... and i'll hit 300, had i not bought a bowling ball n shoes... tsktsk.. did a 2-finger hook, n the ball went....)!! almost hit 'longkang', den went back to hit a few pins!! the ball curl soo nice laa... hahas...

2005-08-23T20:02:00.000+08:00

haha, felt great today, coz i ran a total of 11 rounds round the sch track today... and lots more on the bball court. tsktsk.. can't help it, why muz i be so fit?? -grins
oh, and the expected thing happened... jun hong scrutinized my legs, and felt jealoused of it...says tt he has hairy legs, but its uneven... bald patches because of falls n lacerations... anyway, y m i talking abt this?? sO disgusting lar... haha... hmm, decided to start studying for maths, coz the test on Maclaurin n Curve Sktching iz in 2 days tym... lols

2005-08-22T19:40:00.000+08:00

today sucks, coz

Reason No:

1. so tired today, virtually slept through the first half of the day. wuz doing econs project until 3am dis morning ma... haha...

2. kena suan by my own class for my smooth legs... its NOT WAXED ok... Its in the genes la... stupid eugene and cheryl... SPREAD TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD... Humph... Now everyone will HOG my legs tmr during PE to take a look at the smoother than girl's legs... So retard...

today rocks, coz

Reason No:

1. i ordered the 1st Subway sandwich in my whole entire 16(going on 17) years. Ordered what Jianye ordered. BIG MISTAKE(pun not intended). 1foot long, honey oats, terriyaki chicken, lettuce, pickles, tomatoes, cucumbers, 3 cookies n a large coke!! OMG... Sian... took me 5mins to finish la... Okay okay, maybe a little longer... 35 mins... but i still finished most of it... haha... wada nice experience...

2. i played chess today. n though its the 1st tym playing, found tt i m actually better than some experienced ppl, lyk cheryl... Took a long while before she knew what i intended to do... haha... but in the end, i jump camp, so yoke leng won the game instead.. tsktsk... call me pro la... Haha

2005-08-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

hey, found smth cool tt'll happen ard my b'dae...

Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting this August. It'll look as large as the moon with the naked eye!! It'll reach a climax on Aug 27(2 days aft my b'dae!!) at 12.30am... Be sure to look up at tt tym, coz if u missed it, u'll have to wait till 2287 to look at this phenomena !! See, my 17th b'dae iz so SPECIAL lar... Hahahas

2005-08-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

well, i m not free now, coz of the econs project... argh... so sickening... stuck with a LOSER group... wad to do... haha... kiddingkidding... k, i'll post nex tym... juz thot tt i'll post one at 'www.whyamiso-lame.blogspot.com''s opening day... So act cutee la, dis skin... will change it someday...